as a 15 year old girl i have been through a lot in my life already. i have been depressed before, i am diagnosed with CRPS and an auto immune disorder. my point of this post is to tell you that no matter your medical issues or emotional issues, there's still beautiful to your brokenness. it will get better, you just have to stay strong and positive. i have lost a lot of friends in my past and i always feel like it's because of all my issues. i've been bullied and beaten. the truth is, there's a special friend who God has for you and for me. God has my significant other picked out already. He knows that this person will tolerate my medical issues and be willing to help and love me through all of it. you just need hope and you need a lot, i mean i lot of faith. it's a real battle but God will put the right people in your life to help you through it. i have found that playing video games is a great way to make friends and have fun while still resting. at my current state, i am having major ankle and knee pain and when i walk or am active at all i lose my breath and have trouble breathing so going anywhere is a hassle. finding the good in your situation is very important and can't explain enough how much it helps. i have also found that watching this one specific youtube helps me on the hard days. her name is Mary Frey and she is my role model in so many ways. she has the strongest faith to keep her going through all of her medical issues and a loving husband who helps and supports her through all of it. she also has the CUTEST service dog in the world. i love her channel because she never fails to put a smile on my face and motivate me to keep going. i cannot express my thankfulness for her in words but she is absolutely amazing. if you ever need a smile or laugh or motivation, watch her youtube.